Go Toward The Light

The Oxford English Dictionary defines Light as; (noun) the natural agent that stimulates sight and makes things visible.

A few weeks ago I signed up to Belinda Davidson’s School of The Modern Mystic Level 1 online course ‘The journey into the white discovering your life’s purpose’. This course is about what most bloggers I follow would call “woo-woo” stuff. So far I’ve gathered it’s about meditating, using the power of white light, to cleanse my Chakra’s in order to make my life better (there is a lot more to it than this, but you get the gist).
It sounds oh so easy! Just sit or lie down for a little while and BAM! Squeaky clean Chakra’s and a brand new life!! But alas, nothing worth having comes easily and meditation is hard. I get up really early in the morning and turn the mp3 on, I lie down and try to relax, my mind wanders, I get fidgety from sitting/lying still for too long, I fall asleep (sometimes I drewl…) BUT what do I get in return? So far, I feel really relaxed and happy during the day. I also feel more space in my life, it’s a strange feeling, but the only way I can describe it is it’s like all the cobwebs sticking everything together have been cleared out, some dusting has been done and now I have space to focus on the things that are important to me. I’ve only been doing the meditation for two weeks every couple of days, it’s pretty powerful stuff! And I’m not even staying conscious for the whole thing! Imagine how I’ll feel when I can consciously focus on the meditation the whole time.
Over the past two weeks I’ve struggled, wondering why I find it so difficult to stay focused and awake during the meditation and finally I read that meditating is like working out, and it is! As soon as I read that I realised how silly I’ve been to give myself a hard time, no one has ever won a marathon without doing some serious training! Like wise I need to “walk” before I can metaphorically run.
So I’m super excited about what the course has to offer me, it runs for six months and even if I get nothing from it but more calm and space in my life, I’ll be pretty happy. I’d also be pretty happy if I could complete the mediation completely comfortable, focused and relaxed from start to finish.
I’ve always been quite spiritual and from my very earliest memory of what I thought life was about, (before scripture or church or well meaning Aunts), was that of reincarnation, but I think my idea was rather warped… Every time I think about this memory I see a chicken… weird, I remember thinking that if I didn’t get this life exactly right, I would have to keep living the same life over and over until I got it perfect. A little OCD maybe? It must be where I got my sense of perfectionism from. I’ve also had various spiritual “happenings” such as Astral Travelling involuntarily to check on one of my patient’s at work, I was pretty worried about her and I guess my spirit was too.
So that is why I feel I’ve “clicked” with what Belinda Davidson writes about in her blog. If none of you have heard of Belinda Davidson, I’d get on her blog pronto! She is a wonderful woman, with a very special gift that she is freely sharing with the world (free white light healings of a Monday evening, get on it!). Belinda has really great stories and insights into life, reading her blog is a joy.

Anywho, it’s getting late and I have to get up early because I have a date with an mp3. Just wanted to let you all know about this wonderful little journey I’ve embarked on.

 

– Cass xo –